It is very rare that a movie comes out that really touches my soul.  However, the movie Benhur, really enriched my life.  It made me reevaluate whether I am truly a follower of the true Gospel of Christ.  Do I really walk in the fruit of the spirit? Do I really love my neighbor as myself? Its easy to quote scriptures.  It is not hard to go to Church or read the Bible.

I think the reason why I was so blessed by this movie, because I have been noticing lately my tendency to lash out in anger.  That I have a heart problem. I am a soft hearted person like Benhur, but after getting betrayed over and over and getting my heart crushed repeatedly, there is a root of bitterness that is vestering in my soul. That like the main character I use my anger to push me to survive.  I am surviving but am I truly living.  It is so easy for me to hold grudges and be unforgiving. I am not excusing or condoning my behavior, I am being transparent. I think it is time for the church to be honest and real. We are all struggling with something. I am exposing my bitterness, because nothing heals by being covered.